Feeling boring

[leftyjew]

I feel like I am stagnant and boring. I find myself wasting time and not growing or even meeting people. When I do talk to people, my conversations bore me. I know I'm not usually boring. What's happened? I have been in and out of boredom since starting this job. It is great to meet people with a lot of energy and life in them, but I feel like I don't have that anymore. I need something. Travel? A new job? A new life? Starting over? I've come to realize that I have lived in my house since October. That's almost 7 months straight. This is the first time I've lived anywhere for 7 months straight since high school. What a weird feeling. I've wanted to put down roots somewhere for a while, but I don't feel that I'm doing that. Even though I've lived here for 7 months, I feel very temporary. Even though I've been at my job for 4 months (the longest I've ever held a job for since school and such get in the way, not that I get fired), I feel like it's not something I'm investing my life in. Actually, I pray that I'm not investing my life here. There seem to be too many dead ends.
I'd like to find something I can invest myself in. I want something I can be stimulated by. I feel very superficial. I feel very simple. I know I'm more interesting than I am right now, but where has it gone?

Comments

[allenjaphy.livejournal.com]

hey, I'm Mir(anda) I just added you to my friend list because I'm on my way to washington DC to work with the Religious Action Center for Reform Judaism, and I was hoping to make a friend. I promise I'm not boring at all.

[leftyjew.livejournal.com]

Hi Mir! Friends are good. I'm tired from lack of sleep and drunken Saturday or I'd write more. For some reason I decided to respond to you twice. go figure.

[maea.livejournal.com]

you are not boring. pleh, i would know. :P

it sounds like you are not in the right place. and places are important, even when you're not wanting to put down roots and stay. they have to agree with you half the time, or you'll always end up having loud arguments and wishing you were somewhere else. i think you should find a place that you can fall in love with, and a place that falls in love with you. i have found three places like that, and one i only discovered by leaving it for four months. of course, i fell for the place i was in for four months as well. and New Orleans. that's the third one. but enough maea.

i am so excited! you will be here in less than two weeks. i haven't seen you in more than two years. this is quite nice, you coming to visit. i need to give you a real hug. i promised that i dunno how many times since May of 2002. :)

[leftyjew.livejournal.com]

:-) I can't wait to see you, either! By the way, I just foudn out that Jason will be staying at my place this coming week. Anything I should tell him?